Okay. I need to explain what the heck happened to me during my absense in this platform.
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I was dealing with an abusive relationship that I managed to leave this year. (Link to my Tumblr post. TW on this one)
- I was really depressed, while I was reflecting about my life and the abusive relationship, realizing that I was groomed. As well as other bad stuff, like my complacency. It didn't helped that I was also dealing with my pessimism of this world and my self-hatred.
- Dealing with Maladaptive Daydreaming
- It didn't helped that I was also trying to return to study.
Yeah. I was an emotional depressed negative nihilistic mess. But thankfully I'm feeling better and hopeful. I have my friends to support me, people who support me.
I also started to get more hopeful. Gaining my hope of humanity and hope on myself. After all, Hope Can't Die, It just that some moments its light gets dormant.
I was also posting more drawings, but traditional drawings. Not digital ones. And I felt that I can't post my traditional art on Newgrounds, since it's more focused on digital art.
I have my personal projects:
- The Channelette Project: My TV Channel Gijinka. One of my drawings is one of my designs, CBC-Lette!
- Virus Deleter: I'm still thinking if turning it into a comic or something more. But I'm still refining the ideas for it. My girl, Feroma, will be the protagonist for Virus Deleter.
- I'll try to continue my other projects, like Arc de Slash or Alternative Sorcery. But I'll be mainly focusing on those two.
As well as the consideration of doing a side-job, translating Youtube videos from English to Spanish. I mean, I have a Tumblr side-blog dedicated to my translations. Since I need like an income outside of commissions.
But I'll be continuing doing drawings. Especially after getting used to draw on my tablet using IbisPaint, while my laptop I can use it to focus on studying. But I also need to focus on balancing life and studying.
Also, due to security reasons, as well as my ex can message me on Ko-Fi-
UPDATE: Due to BMAC not having PayPal support, I had to return to Ko-Fi. I had to accept seeing my test donation that I gave to my ex's Ko-Fi. But If I don't message him first, he will not talk to me. Also, I hope Ko-FI can strengthen they security options. (After all, I'm not ready to make a Patreon page, yet)
I'll be going to bed. Drawing commissions are open. Check my Buy Me A Coffee or Carrd.Co commission page.
Stay looking upwards, and hope for a better future. Fight for the Future.
See you in 2024. I hope.
_Elec